Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Fallen

Fallen: Sarah McLachlan

Tonight I have kept watching and listening to this song and video.  It is speaking to me.  I know that some of you haven't a clue what is going on and that is okay.  I have good moments and bad moments.  Nights are hard for me.  Tomorrow night marks the 2-week date from when my life took a turn for the worse.  Maybe I shouldn't mark time but I guess that's how I do things.  Normal?  Maybe.

I love these words from the song:
Heaven bend to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turn their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
One slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

I am pretty sure that I pissed SKW off tonight.  It just doesn't seem that I can say anything right... ever... to anyone.  I warned her going into this that I shouldn't talk to her because this would probably happen.  It's inevitable.  I run everyone away.  Always have, probably always will.  I don't do it on purpose - it just happens.  "I'm lost to those I thought were friends - to everyone I know." 

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